Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Self portrait and reflection
I keep asking myself this question, trying to work out a satisfactory answer. You see I find it impossible to plan anything when my future is so wide open. In fact, I have no idea what I want to do with my life!
I want to be happy. I know what makes me happy today, but I can't pretend to know what will make me happy in, say, five years time. Will it be the exact same things as today? I hope not - wouldn't that get boring??
I want to keep evolving as a person. No ruts please!
I want to be passionate about my hobbies.
Happy-evolving-passionate...successful? It's not exactly a plan. It's not exactly drifting, either (unless I am deceiving myself). So how do I go about being happy, evolving and passionate?
The passion comes easy...I get wrapped up in whatever project I am working on - blogging, photography, thrifting are a few of my latest obsessions. While I don't know how to measure personal growth, I am willing to try things that make me slightly uncomfortable - once in a while (such as posting my first self portrait online!). As for happiness? Well, here are a few things that made me happy today:
- fresh laundered sheets
- hearing 'thank you mommy'
- baby smiles
- reading a blog post that I really connect to
- a clean, beautiful, functioning home
- blog comments!!!
I am not sure how clean sheets, thrifting, and playing with my boys could lead to any sort of success. I can't base a career upon any of them. Do I pin my hopes for the future on the blog? I haven't, although it is tempting. I think approaching 8foot6 as a possible business opportunity might change the way I blog, no?
See - no answers! Just more questions!
Do I need to spin my passions into businesses in order to be someone someday?
Do other stay-at-home moms have a long term plan?P
Is it possible to become a success by taking life on - one.day.at.a.time?
If you have some answers, or insight, or just want to leave your two cents - I'd love to hear from you!
Thank you to everyone who commented on this post...you have given me a lot (more) to think about! I love hearing your point of view!